A year later

We’ve stepped down for a while now, and over the past year I’ve seen myself change a lot, not only due to the leadership journey but also JC in general.

On the one hand, I think I’ve settled into the rigour of the JC curriculum quite nicely, my Promo’s and MBT’s results hold testament to that. Maintaining at least a C in all my H2s, not too shabby. My PW got a B, so that’s kinda a no for a perfect score already. Not that I was aiming for 90, but that would have been nice. Anyway, I’m actually writing this in preparation for my MYEs. Been losing steam and motivation lately, maybe I just need a break. Maybe I need to revise my studying style. Maybe I’m just tired.

On the other, I think I’ve failed as house captain. Honestly, I tried to the best of my ability. I don’t regret any of my decisions I have made in this position, nor do I think there was anything else I could have done. I did what I can with what I had. And it was bad. I set out wanting to make Phobos a family. I didn’t do so. I look to other houses’ progress throughout this past one year under my fellow house captains and I am humbled. So so so humbled. If Phobos turned out half as bonded as some of the other houses, half as successful, half as fun, I would be satisfied. Maybe it’s the house, I got dealt a bad hand and I was forced to play it. Maybe its the player that sucks at the game. Either way, what’s done’s done.

I also got in and out of my first relationship with a girl. It was short-lived, and I think it was really circumstances that got in the way. Maybe it was rushed, I don’t know. But as the Chinese saying goes, 经一事,长一智. Whatever it is, I’m glad it happened and I hope she thinks the same to this day.

There’s still a good 4/5 months left of this JC journey. I hope its gonna be good.

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”On a scale of ‘Strongly Disagree’ to ‘Strongly Agree’, do you often think you’re a failure?” 

Strongly agree.

 

It has only been about one and a half weeks since we’ve sworn in as councillors, but the 12th Meridian council has been elected since about the beginning of April. And it has been about 3 weeks since I’ve been elected as Phobos’s House Captain. And just yesterday was when we bade our final farewell to our J2 council seniors.

And quite frankly, throughout the entire duration, I was scared. So scared. And I still am.

For my entire life, I have been a 2IC. When I was still in Cub Scouts back in RVPS, I was the assistant Sixer for my Six. In NCC, I was the 2IC for the Part ‘B’. I have pretty much never spearheaded a movement before. Ever. And now, I’ve been thrust into a leadership position that I don’t even believe I can manage properly. In fact, when posed with the question of what position I wanted to run for in exco, the first thing that came to mind was ‘Vice-Captain’. 

People seem to believe in me. People tell me ‘Don’t stress yourself out. The things will come naturally with experience.’ But the thing is, I’m supposed to have that experience. I have been in a UG for more years than the fingers on my hands. I had an actual leadership position (sorta kinda, not the top brass of course) And yet there are other captains, other vice-captains, who are doing such a better job than me and it really just makes me question if I have made the right choice to run for exco in the first place. What do I even possess in me that I can offer to Phobos? To MJC? 

Ultimately, it boils down to one thing

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And this goes beyond even council matters. Even in my studies, I find difficulty grasping the answering techniques and concepts, despite going through the exact same tutorials and lectures my classmates are. And don’t even get me started on the utter disappointment that was the taekwondo competition. In the end, I’m just failing. 

If anything, it’s the one thing I can ace. What an irony.

Kill la Kill: Before my body is dry (i.e. Don’t lose your way) full lyrics

Cruel Ultimatum

KLK OST

I am posting the full lyrics of the song here (taken from the official OST booklet), so that fans can sing along whenever the trademark chorus appears. Unfortunately, I cannot post any YouTube links to the song because there is a high chance it will be taken down for copyright infringement.

Do take note, that there are some minor grammatical errors in the lyrics. I will leave them unedited to preserve the originality of the song.

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‘O’ Levels, among other things

As Hykel captioned on one of his photos, it is that time of the year again. The release of the results has always been emotional. Evidently so, seeing as there were a few schoolmates I witnessed crying over his/her results. Nonetheless, it is merely a stepping stone in the journey that is our education, and I would like to congratulate all of my peers who have received their results today, regardless of score.

Personally, I’m quite disappointed, yet happy at the same time. Allow me to explain why so for each of the subjects.

EL: For English, I maintained my grade of B3 from prelim 2, which was kind of expected. After all, English is a hard subject to master, and I am really in awe of those who got A2 and A1. Props to you guys.

Physics: Ah, my beloved science. Improved from a low C5 to an A1! Such improvement, much joy. One of the few subjects that actually hit my expectations.

Chemistry: Ah, my not-as-beloved science. Improved from a just-as-low C5 to an A2. Not as high as I had hoped, but an improvement nonetheless. Gotta really thank Mr Samson Lam for this one, though. If not for him, I might not even have made it past B3.

E’ Maths: Improved from A2 to A1. Nothing really much to say here. I am aiming for a maths major in university anyway, I had better get an A1.

A’ Maths: Maintained my grade of B3 from prelim 2. Needless to say, this was a major disappointment for me. A’ Maths was always the subject that I did well in. If there was a subject I could count on to do well in, it’s A’ Maths. In fact, it was A’ Maths that saved me from retaining sec 3! Yet, I only managed to get a B3, far below my own expectations. However…

Geography: …Such amaze, much wow. Improved from C6 to a whopping A1. This is probably the first time I’ve been so happy with myself. Not only had I proven to that failure of a teacher that I ar gud at teh studez, I had proven to myself that with enough hard work, I can achieve what I want. The hours of mugging at NSP, NLB and Geylang Library have paid off. Although I must thank Ms Lai Han Wei for teaching and motivating me, along with the rest of the half that’s in her class. If not for her, I might not have been able to push myself to achieve what I had.

Combined humanaties: E8 to Absent. 😀 The choice to drop it was a good one.

 

All in all, I would like to thank all my teachers for the wonderful guidance that you have provided for the cohort in the past years. (except for you hosoochoo C: ) I would also like to thank the Part D bros for sticking together as friends for so long, and hope that we remain just as close-knit in post-sec life. Needless to say, the same goes to all the friends I have. My 4 years in Chung Cheng has definitely been a pleasant one, and it’s all thanks to you guys. 

 

 

 

MapleStory 2~!

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First Adventure's Anticipation

Do you remember? The anticipation of your first adventure, let’s create a thrilling new story!

MapleStory 2

It’s finally happened… MAPLESTORY 2 has been officially announced by Nexon! Along with a short teaser site, there was a FAQ released on the MapleStory website which I will be going over.

I’m excited! It’s been so long since we’ve heard anything about MapleStory 2, I wonder how different it’s going to be! What are your thoughts?

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